Sad

Grandma is moving today. I am sad to see this really happening... sad because it didn't work out... sad because she wasn't happy here... sad because I feel like I've wronged her... sad because she left Grandpa here... sad because he has no clue what's going on... sad because I feel like we've failed them... sad because no matter what we do, it feels like it's wrong... sad because it had to end up this way...

My body is feeling better... little by little. But after getting back home from saying goodbye to Grandma this morning... I laid in bed and tears didn't even flow, which I imagined they would've. Instead, my stomach started to hurt again.