Random Thoughts

I started up my scrapbooking again. The entire dining room table is taken over by scraps, books, photos, and mess. I dislike the clutter of it all, but I love the hobby. In my dream house, I'm going to have a special place to do my projects. Maybe a spare room or just a corner in my (finished) basement.

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Also, I forgot to add some things to my dream house the other day- a fridge with a water dispenser and ice dispenser, a fire place, and at least one large window.

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I cried tonight. The pain and swelling got to me. I'm a pretty tough chica, usually. But I'm just getting tired of the whole thing. The world goes on and doesn't wait for me to catch up. So when we're out of cat food and our black ink goes out on the printer... I can't just hop into the car and run to Wal-Mart. People on narcotics aren't allowed to drive. Bummer. And when you can hardly move because it feels like your bones (probably just the muscles in my stomach) are stabbing you every which way... that's pretty much not fun either. And my esophagus burns. Unsure why. So I cried. I'm a baby.

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Awana starts tomorrow and I can't be there to meet my new kids or help out at all. I guess I'm pretty bummed about that too. Some of those tears were probably for this as well. I have Eloise (my niece) at my table this year. I'm excited.

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I think I picked a color to paint my bedroom. And I have some ideas of how I want to "redo" it. I'm excited to dive into that project when I feel better. I wonder if my dad is excited to help me (he'll have to reach the high spots).

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I realized today that I have the best parents and the best husband in the entire world. I thanked God for each of them and told Him never to take them away from me- I need them. Each of them have been there for me through all my trials and health issues. They put up with me and see me through it all. My sisters are pretty great, too, in that way.

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I also realized it is very important for me to make a couple spare house keys and (a) give one to my mom and (b) keep one either hidden somewhere or give it to my neighbor. I am very good at locking myself out of the house AND the car. I didn't do that today... I thought I did... but the keys showed up in my sweatshirt pocket. Not sure how they hopped in there- they were supposed to be in my purse. I called Daddy and he was all ready (and willing!) to save me. He does that a lot. But lo and behold- I found the keys in my sweatshirt.

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Somehow, despite the fact that I have three (very high maintenance) cats that get on my nerves and take up too much space in this small house, I fall in love with every cat/kitten that I see and therefore I think that I need to have it. This is a problem... an illness probably. (No, I did not adopt any more cats... yes I seriously considered it.) I am that crazy cat lady you all dreaded knowing.


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If you have intended on replacing the front door since the day you moved in, why has it taken over 2 years to get there? No. We didn't replace that door yet. But I realized tonight that I can make a few phone calls and at least head in that direction, can't I?

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Isn't it funny how you figure out friends? I have always had a hard time making and keeping friends... basically all my life. But the last couple months I have been able to sit back and recognize what it means to be a good friend- a REAL friend. And I have been blessed with SEVERAL of those. You know, those people that encourage you at times and in ways you least expect it. Those people that love you despite your failures. Those people you feel close enough to that you can share life (the real stuff- the dirty truth stuff) with them. I am honored to say that I have those kinds of friends. Thank you, God, for such friends.

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Thursday is my 4 year wedding anniversary with my handsome husband. He is nothing like me- we hardly have anything in common. But he is certainly my other half. We have stood together through so many trials... health problems, job losses/changes, deaths in our families, surgeries, an adoption failure, financial stress, the list could go on and on... It's those things that make us who we are as a couple. When he said "for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health..." he really meant it. So did I.