Why Me?

Last night (yes, I was crying... again), I was letting everything out and talking to Jeff. "Why me? Why did God pick me to have to live this life? I am a good person... I don't do things to hurt others, I care about people, I love people, etc... Why me?" Jeff told me that God knew that nobody else could handle it except for me. He told me that it has to be somebody that trusts Him and will rely on Him to get me through it. He also said "If God didn't let us suffer as the rest of the world does, what would separate us from them? We'd have nothing to look past in order to shine our lights for Him." I know Jeff is right... but it still doesn't feel fair.

What are the odds?
I got a card from my sister, Molly, in the mail today... about God understanding the pain. And then I got an e-card from my sister, Katie (who I thought wasn't even speaking to me!), today encouraging me as well.

I still just feel so "why me-ish" today. I wish I had the answers.