BEWARE!

I'm sort of mad at life right now.

I hate how every thing I want to eat is not good for me... too much sodium in it. And everybody around me (Jeff) can eat the garbage with sodium like it's nobody's business. Ugh. I hate how the hernia is coming back... and the fluid is getting annoying again. And yet- I faithfully take my Bumex so I can *pee* (I hate using that word) every 5 seconds. Joy! So I get to pee all the time, but my stomach is still full and my hernia is returning.

Oh! And then there's walking. The mornings and evenings have been GORGEOUS! I would walk ten times a day, if I could. But I'm not "allowed" to walk in my neighborhood by myself. Now, we DID buy this house before we realized all my health problems... but hello? I'm not allowed to go out alone in my neighborhood? Lame. Can I go out and walk with the baby if/when he's here?

I'm tired. Almost always. And I have a hard time napping because there's so much on my mind, or the phone rings all the time. And no- I can't turn the phone off, because for three LOOOOOONG weeks, I've been anticipating getting a phone call that my baby is being born. Ugh. People keep telling me "sleep now while you can." I'm sorry- but I'm pretty sure I'll sleep better once the baby is actually here.

Then there are little things that just drive me absolutely nuts... things on Facebook- whiny people, ignorant people, know-it-alls, selfish people... Things in my house- the cats seem like they're a thousand times messier than ever before (shedding, probably, because of summer)...

And the unknown is driving me crazy as well. There are too many of those going on at once.

Jeff and I went to take our 10 yr old Civic in for an oil change... come to find out there are about fifty other (okay, perhaps a slight exaggeration) things wrong with the car. Ugh. We have another car in the driveway right now that is just collecting dust and rust... we have to get that one out first... then the Civic can go. But we can't afford a newer car. Of course not.

And I'm sick of controversy. I'm sick of people thinking they're right all the time. I'm sick of them pushing their opinions on you like you should agree with them and you're ignorant if you don't. I'm sick of the way Christians live their lives... I thought a Christian was a little Christ. Ha! Is the joke on me? I don't know many little Christs. I know a bunch of selfish, self-centered, hateful, prideful people. It makes me sick. And angry.

Oh! And don't even try renting a movie... they're all filled with garbage.

And shopping for little girl clothes, for my (almost) 8 yr old niece's birthday??? Yeah... um, she's 8 people... not 18. And even if she WERE 18, I would not buy those disgusting, skimpy articles of fabric that you call "clothing." Seriously!?!

*sigh*

What's up with people (again, Christians) hating you/me? Hello? If I've offended you, please let me know... but do not ignore me for no reason, or avoid me. Really, people. I'm a nice person (usually- just not right now)... I don't bite, don't hit, and usually I don't spit either.

Sure makes me wonder...

I'm kind of tired of this life. Are you? I mean- there has to be more to life than controversy, competition, and egos. Don'tchya think? I'm tired. So so tired.